Silent Sanctuary

Witnessing shards of my incadescent reveries

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Tuesday, February 01, 2005

Taken from Von's blog.
Read and share her views.
Totally agreed.

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Dad has the biggest ego, greatest ability to want to save face and the most wicked mouth.

However, I know deep down inside he's lonely, frightened and lacking all the love and attention.

I remember that someone ever told me, the ones who are mean and nasty are those who lack love. I am determined to help my dad.

At least at the end of the day, no matter the outcome I have played my part and not let myself down.
While I'm the one who gets physically and emotionally tormented by him the most, all these years, I am also the one who has wanted to help him the most.

Today, we had a long conversation which landed both of us in tears.
I do not expect that this might reverse anything, but I'll do more than this.
No one wants to talk to him much because they think he's fucked up.
I feel so too at times, and I ever told myself that I'll never wish to be associated with him again, but at the end of the day, I feel the guilt, remorse and upset for ignoring him and seeing this sadness in his eyes.

I believe no one knows him more than his family - us.
I know if I ever ignore him forever I will regret it in the later years, because he is still my father.
I told him that I know he vents it on us because he himself feels stressed up, but I'll still respect and love him.

Everything happens for a reason doesn't it?
After a long conversation, I assured him that if he needed to talk or wanted anything, he could always tell me.
I understand that in actual fact, I still treat him as my father no matter how frustrated he made me and will I'll always try my best to be good to him.....

God please bless that dad and us, the rest of the family, will live in harmony and love each other till the end of each others' lives.
To all of you out there, cherish your family or live in guilt!

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WEll..I would say for many diff reasons,parents n children are often in conflict.
And of coz it depends on individual situations as well.

But I always think...no matter how..we are related by blood.
Whatever bad that has happened may have cased a deep bad mark....
But...

In the end..maybe you would find yourself lighter n happier to forgive,than to bear the hatred.

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